"Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura" (sundowne36)
12/20/2013 at 03:35 • Filed to: None
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"Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura" (sundowne36)
12/20/2013 at 03:35 • Filed to: None | 1
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Here's a VW Fastback for your troubles. Now...
For some reason, I feel like everything is at an end for me. My own family is arguing, I might lose my house, oh and guess what - I flunked out of my quarter.
I hate to admit this, but I feel like I'm done. Yeap. And yet, for every single time I wake up and stare at the sky blue ceiling in my own room, I wonder why I was placed into this world - to feel nothing but despair? I'm done.
Milky
> Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura
12/20/2013 at 03:44 |
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Err I don't like the "I'm done" attitude. Parts of life suck, if it didn't then how could you appreciate the good times? I personally have never dealt with suicide & don't even know if thats a issue here, but I have seen this video …
d00mZ
> Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura
12/20/2013 at 03:58 |
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Yo Satoshi, I'm dealing with the same shit. Currently in no-speaking terms with one of my family members and it's the holidays. I've flunked out of quarterS (plural) before and I'm still pushing. I've felt like giving up on everything, even restoring my own jdm classic, but holy shit it gets better when you realize that even the smallest shit never gave up on you. It could be anything: a pet, girlfriend, boyfriend, other family members that feel for you, even goddamn money. It always gets better in the future. Cliché as it is, it's just a bump in the road. FUCK EVERYTHING and do YOU.
Krieger (@FSKrieger22)
> Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura
12/20/2013 at 04:13 |
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Things get better (not like they have for me, but someday...). And you aren't just handed a sense of duty, a sense of purpose and told "that's all you get, make the best of it". You need to find purpose for your existence. Find something to do, maybe even anything to do, if that's what keeps your mind off this.
YSI-what can brown do for you
> Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura
12/20/2013 at 04:22 |
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So I was pretty sad at some point in my life. Nearly gave up on everything as well. All I can say is. Do not give up! I did and my situation only became worse... it wasnt pretty, let me tell you. If you try, things will work out but you got to beat life into submission!!! Leave no survivors! I don't know about your house situation but the other two, you should have no fear! Families fight all the time. I am pretty sure mine is always in a state of war. And grades do not define someone's intelligence. If you get bad grades one semester just try harder the next. I nearly failed a semester... The next one got a B average.
Basically what I am trying to say is. Just push on! Try your best at everything that matters and everything will be fine.
Zipppy, Mazdurp builder, Probeski owner and former ricerboy
> Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura
12/20/2013 at 05:24 |
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I'm dealing with the exact same crap here. I failed all, (I mean all) of my subjects this semester. I had to put up with a ton of drama between my mother and father. Now my grandmother all the sudden decided to come over, and now I can't sleep due to her snoring really loudly in the other room, I've had many restless nights because of this.
Stef Schrader
> Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura
12/20/2013 at 09:03 |
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You have lived up to your tagline of "cutelopnik" with this VW. I approve.
This probably sounds trite and useless right now, but hang in there.
So, in the short term, look at how to get through this. There must be a way—if not on your own, then with others' help.
What caused you to flunk? Go into next quarter with some way not to do that again . So, here's some options from someone who sucked at college for a while:
1. Appeal any kind of suspension you might get. There's usually an appeals process. Look it up in the student handbook or ask your department head/dean/student services office about it, and get that appeal in post haste. Usually they take extenuating circumstances into account, and it definitely sounds like you have those. If you just got some kind of academic probation, congrats. Kick next semester's ass and you're out of trouble.
2. Find help with that stuff. If it's a matter of getting depressed and not doing the work, talk to someone. Colleges have a ton of resources for folks who aren't feeling all that great. If it's a matter of not understanding the material, there's always a ton of people floating around who could probably help you understand it.
3, If it's just not something you're feeling right now—switch majors. Add a minor to try it out. Switch schools, even, if that needs to happen. Find something you enjoy now. Okay, be practical about it (unless you're really, really gifted at underwater basket weaving), but you don't want to get stuck getting a degree in crap you hate only to hate your job after college, too.
As for the house thing, are there friends who could take you in? Family? I got so mad at my roommate's need for eight hours of carefully scheduled, easily interrupted sleep that I crashed on a friend's floor for a while when I lived in the dorms. Not an ideal situation, but manageable.
On the fighting, find positive people. Take your mind off of it. Maybe not positive people who are so happy goofy that it annoys you to death, but ones who won't judge you if you're down. I made the mistake of hanging around folks who only liked to point out my flaws for a while and that made it so much worse.
I dealt with some pretty bad depression in college. My grades sucked, I felt like a failure, I didn't want to get out of bed or do anything besides hope I get hit by a bus. I know that feel, dude. I bought a lot of Puffalumps hoping they'd cheer me up, but that was mostly temporary. "Yay, Puffalump!" and then right back to feeling like I'm a failure. I had to do something to prove my own worth to myself again. I needed a challenge, so I started playing with my car. Screw you, world, I will hoon this crappy Nissan. I got out of the house more. I met people who didn't just pile on top of my failures and actually—gasp!—encouraged me not to dwell on suck. Pretty soon, things were back to normal. I kicked ass my last couple semesters because I decided that I must go forth, buy something better to hoon and hoon it. I needed a job. I needed not to fail at school entirely so I could do that, heh. It can be done. It doesn't look like it right now, but it can.
tl;dr—go forth and kick life's ass.
thebigbossyboss
> Stef Schrader
12/20/2013 at 10:14 |
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What is a puffalump?
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Stef Schrader
> thebigbossyboss
12/20/2013 at 11:48 |
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These toys:
I collect them. They're cute and squishy, but also proof that you can't really buy happiness.